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Spiritual:
I was born into a relatively open minded family that never really pushed much onto me thus allowing me to draw conclusions for myself.I found myself looking at each of these religions that people kill and die over and shaking my head. All of these religions will claim to the ends of the earth that they are the right and true religion, so how am I supposed to decide which one is right? By choosing the one that happens to be predominant in my surroundings? Screw that! I saw no reason to find Christianity any more truthfull than any other religion. So for years I stood there, agnostic as can be. I figured as a mere mortal I have no way to tell if there is a god and any specifics about her/him.
Nowadays I've abandoned half of that standpoint... Through my own personal observation I''ve concluded that there is a god/higher being/superlative power. After all we exist right? This whole universe exists? The fact that anything exists is nearly proof for me. Pay close attentoin to this next part.
Considering all the rules of this universe, all of what is considered logic in this world, both the 'scientific' explanations for the creation of the universe don't make sense.
The first one is that matter has always been... All the rules of this universe (as far as we can tell) kinda rule this out however... Something can't have always been! That's proposterous! It had to have come from somewhere, or began at some point. The rules of this universe deem it impossible.
The second one is that the universe did start at one point. But this is even more absurd and contrary to basic logic. This one says that matter just appeared and BAM! We have existence. Again, according to this universe's rules, it is impossible.
So... Considering everything we know about this universe, it seems the only thing that could make sense is that nothing ever did, does or will exist. It's the default. It completly makes sense!!! Nothing! The obvious problem here is that... well, there is such a thing as existence.
So at this point the rules of this universe don't seem to offer an answer at all! it's impossible! According to this universe's own laws, it shouldn't even exist.
But it does which is why the idea of a "god" does make sense (to me that is). It offers the explanation of a whole set of different rules. Thus making it more plausible that a "god" could have always existed or could have randomly appeared than for this universe to do the same... A god and/or its "universe" could have completly different rules that allow such things...
Roll all of that over in your head for a little while if you would. It's just logic.
Then you have this feeling of self awareness... The fact that I recognize myself as being me, you as you. It seems to me if we were all just a group of atoms that were formed together in a way that allows these atoms to move around and procreate then we'd be just that. Bodies, carrying out these life functions, clumps of mass, biologically programmed to carry on the species. But it doesn't seem to be so simple as we are self aware, our brains don't seem to just respond to it's environment... we have that nearly indescribable self recognition that suggests we are something more... I wish I could explain it better but I suppose I'll trust you understand what I mean by that sensation of knowing that you are yourself.
To me, that also suggests a greater force/god/whatever the hell you wanna call it.
But again, I'm a mere mortal... I havn't died yet so I don't think I'm qualified to say that I know of any specifics beyond "There is some greater force type thing out there". I'm even still capable fo swallowing the idea that there is no God.... I highly doubt it but.... Well, I can understand how somebody can think that. Reincarnation? Why not? Heaven? Sure. Returning to the life stream? Possbily.... Point being: As someone who hasn't died (or at least not to my knowledge) I'm not going to assume anything. I have no fucking clue.
So untill I die I'll just do my best to have a blast while I'm down here and even be a damn good person as well. (for more on that read my essay entitles "A Good life" or something like that in the Written Word section.)
Also, if you wanted to hear me go off on religion, wait for the secular section. Personally I consider religions a secular issue. (goes to show how I think of em).
Secular views, coming soon. WeeEEEeeEEEee!
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